A Wobbly Moment

To all those lovely people who have offered advice and support over the past week or so, thank you so much. You've made me feel hugely better about this waiting game that I'm playing. For someone who absolutely loathes waiting and who is naturally impatient, this has been a real lesson and I'm just so grateful to have understanding ears to pour all of my whines into. :-)

So, I'm feeling much better about waiting on Anna to get back to me, although I had a wobbly moment on Saturday when I found out I didn't final in a contest I had high hopes of. It's funny how the fact of not finalling suddenly made me doubt my writing and doubt the stories I had entered. Maybe they were boring? Maybe I'm not as good as I think I am? Maybe I was arrogant in thinking I would final in the first place? Sigh. Whatever, it's a good lesson in humility and just goes to show that even when you think you're doing quite well, there will always be people who don't agree.
It actually got me thinking that that it won't be any easier if I'm published. You'll always be worrying about whether the editor likes your next book, whether anyone will buy it, whether they'll like it, and if they don't like it, how to cope with bad reviews. Scary stuff. Obviously I need to start growing a thicker skin.
That wasn't a blatant play for sympathy, by the way, merely a little sulk. I'm over it now - retail therapy courtesy of Great Uncle Visa certainly helped, as did large amounts of chocolate. :-)

Speaking of contests, I just wanted to say a big woohoo to Rach! She finalled in the Valerie Parv and the Great Beginnings contest! That girl's got talent and if she doesn't sell soon, I'll eat my cotton socks. WTG, Rach.

Oh, and you know I mentioned I computer game I bought for my birthday? Well, it's called The Sims 3 and it's kind of like a real life simulator. You manage the lives of virtual people. The reason I'm telling you this is that in the game, you can make your little people become writers and make money by selling books. And do you know which books make the most money in the game? Romance books!! If only that were as easy in real life... ;-)

You Gotta Say Boots, Not Shoes.

Herewith the boots.

Yes, the picture is crap. They are black suede so kind of boring but then so is NTAI. I'm hoping that when I get the big yes/no, I'll splash out to celebrate/cry with something totally ridiculous and pretty, that I will never have any opportunity to wear like....








these.....











On the other hand, I could just continue to write lots of books. :-)

New Boots

One must never underestimate the value of retail therapy. To help me NTAI (see previous post), I went out today and got myself some new boots. With a heel. Now, I don't normally wear heels. They hurt my feet and they make me feel overdressed. But now, as I edge closer towards the big four oh, I've decided to hell with that. I don't want to be on my death bed thinking 'man, I really wish I'd got myself some killer heels'. Hence the boots. They were also going to either be my 'Woohoo I sold my book' boots or my 'Wah, they rejected my book' boots. Sadly they are neither. Today they're my NTAI boots.

Okay, I'll stop wibbling about the boots. On more important matters such as writing, I have nearly finished Kate and Alex. Again I find myself charging towards the finish line, wrapping the whole thing up in seconds flat. I think it'll take at least 5k to finish and then end up finishing in 1! What's with that? I suspect it's because I don't like endings. The whole let-me-explain-why-I-acted -so-badly explanation thing is very tiresome to me. Plus I don't like mush. I know, odd for a romance writer, but I can't stand it when things get too syrupy. And inevitably, there's always a certain amount of syrup required for an ending.

What about everyone else? Do you like endings? Or do you prefer buying boots? :-)